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I feel so cliche. As people ask me how I am doing in the virtual world, I answer thus so: "It's getting better." "It's been rough." "I only cried once this week." "It's a little overwhelming." "I am not being the teacher I hope to be." "I look forward to diving into more ways to teach online once the dust settles." Blah. Meh. Shrug. I am getting tired of these dead-end non-comments. They are honest. But are they true? If they are true, can I investigate on another level? My goal is this: -to understand myself better -to communicate clearly to those who are interested -to become a better teacher -to claim my destiny (well, at least take charge of what is in my control)  Photo by Abbie Bernet on Unsplash Let's unpack these: "It's getting better." -What is getting better? Why is it getting better? How much is within my control? "It's been rough." -What has been rough, exactly? What do you mean by rough? How has rough felt to me? "I only cried once this week." -Why am I crying? How do I take care of myself when I am crying? What am I doing once I am done crying? "It's a little overwhelming." -What is making it overwhelming? What does overwhelming feel like? What can make it less overwhelming? "I am not being the teacher I hope to be." -What does this even mean? What teacher do I "hope to be"? "I look forward to diving into more ways to teach online once the dust settles." -When will that happen? What does "dust settles" mean?  Oh! I am seeing a pattern! When I make a generic comment to others, what is the truth behind that comment? Ask yourself (myself) these questions: 1. Why is it _________? Why did I _______? 2. What does it feel like? 3. What do I mean by ______? 4. What is in my power to do about it? I'm not going to dissect all of those questions and thoughts now, but I like the direction this blog post is taking me. I was inspired by watching some of my son's YouTube videos (Svelte Master) to just get up and post. I set the timer for 20 minutes and so I am done for today. (Oh how I wanted to take longer to make better visuals and add some bells and whistles....) More thoughts to come as I think through some of those follow up questions. It's time to keep this day rolling! Jill
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