Real-EYES-Ation-nation

This realization hit me yesterday. 
1.  The year is ending.
2. The new year will begin.

With all of the treading water and diving into the deep end I've been doing, I forgot that the boat is coming to take me to the beach.  

Why does this matter?  It matters to me for a couple of reasons.  

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For one thing, soon I will have the time and space I need to reflect.  To think about what went well this year and what didn't.  To think about what I want to do again next year.  In a nutshell, I will have

SPACE

Although I have had more "free time" than usual, my mind has been restless.  Abuzz with thinking of ideas to (try to) improve elearning.  My mind bustles with thoughts about how to do things better, how to be better, how to connect better, repeat.  When summer comes along, I can settle, breathe, and reflect.  

I look forward to having that space.  

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​Secondly, in my heart of hearts I believe we will be returning to brick and mortar schools in the fall.  While this can feel overwhelming, I still delight in the summertime to learn more and ponder new ideas. I love the time to learn and plan and organize my mind.  Oh, I love the not thinking about it as well, to be sure.  The relaxing and learning and reflecting prime me and energize me for a new school year.  

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I'm not going to lie, I panicked a bit when I first thought about going back to school.  But then I remembered I have the summer to regroup.  I am going to have time to get ready to rejoin what is yet to be known.  Panicking will happen again, to be sure.  Right now, though, I am choosing to see the reality without carrying it around with me.